So... Today is the day 1/365
Yesterday went out like a bang. I ended up smoking nearly two packs of cigarettes yesterday which is a bit harder than one might think. Especially when smoking Marlboro's. I found that by midway through the second pack i found that i was nearly dying for oxygen. Which is tough when your standing up and walking around nearly the entire time. The second pack of cigarettes literally made me feel like I was dying. When i got home last night after smoking the full second pack... I found that laying on the couch, I had more than enough mucus in my throat to choke me and the sounds of breathing were not fun. In order to calm down... I put on a movie and watched about an hour of it. The Justice League - Justice is Grey... I've never watched it before and figured a 4 hour movie would be good to dive the senses into. After an hour or so... Katie wanted me to come to bed so that's ultimately what I did.
When i woke up this morning... the craving for a cigarette was fairly strong. I looked at my cash and tried to justify why it would be a good idea to postpone quitting.. why it would be a good idea to buy a pack this morning and instead start the quit smoking attempt later today (After the pack is gone). However... i stuck to my guns and put on the Nicotine Patch... Went and got a coffee and wake up wrap from Dunkin... and am so far doing ok. I'm sure that over the next couple of days I'll be experiencing Nicotine Withdrawals even though I'll be wearing the patch. This is simply because the 21mgs of nicotine which is being delivered though the patch may not be enough for the first few days in comparison to the 1-2 packs of cigarettes that I had normally smoked in a day.
I will be reminding myself that this is for my future health. That most men end up having health problems in their 40s from excess smoking / drinking / drugs and that i am still a year away from starting my 40s... so i still have time to course correct before it gets worse and i end up with something that i cant get out of. Plus... i think it would be good to start a new job on a clean slate. I start my new job next Monday (The 28th) so it makes sense that i work towards my goals while i have a week in between jobs... rather than anything else.
Today the wife and I are going walking... Then I'm going to the gym... Then we'll see where the day takes me. Wish me luck during my quit smoking journey.
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