T.A. Michaels

 I'm ready to quit. Tomorrow is my quit date. And I'm ready. I'm not sure what type of withdrawals I'll experience tomorrow. But i can tell you that i am going to do my best to fight through them. Overall it was a good weekend. Katie wasn't feeling the best the yesterday... but i still enjoyed the time spent with her. My weekend obsession was Playstation backbone. But i found that it wouldn't be worth while.  This week at work should be good. I'm hoping that the week goes by quick. I'm about to take my pills... and get ready for bed.  That's all for now.

 Today was a good day overall. I had probably about 15 cigarettes... but i knew yesterday that i was going to be seeing a spike due to a large amount of driving that I had to do today. The doctors went well... and i managed to get my blood work done at the same time. Other than a possible minor infection... nothing really to worry about.  Work went by fairly quickly and when i got home we had Jersey Mikes for dinner. I suggested we go to the beach this evening and Katie was into it so we went down to Charlestown and caught the sunset. On the way back we stopped at the new Shake Shack and grabbed a couple of shakes. Now we are home and Katie just went to bed. It's about 10:10pm (2 hours later than my normal writing this week. This weekend we have a lot going on. Tomorrow morning we are taking Ash and Matchy to get their nails trimmed... Then relaxing for the majority of the afternoon. I don't have anything planned really... and i don't think Katie does either... but tomorrow...

 Today... was a good day. I've had 11 cigarettes overall and i'm likely going to be having one more before i go to sleep. Due to things i was thinking about through out the day today... I found the urge to smoke was slightly higher than it was yesterday. Ending the day at 11 cigarettes is still a win though. Often times on Thursday nights I end up chain smoking most of the evening and i have between 20 and 30 cigarettes. So... for me to break the habit and only have 11 (Maybe 12) is a win for me. It actually makes me think that tomorrow morning i wont be chain smoking while i'm driving around everywhere. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow morning. And I also have to go to a client site afterwards. It makes for a lot of time in the car and for someone who was notorious for smoking 3 cigarettes every time i drove 30 minutes... i dread the self consciousness of walking into a sterile building knowing that a smell like smoke even though i can't smell myself. My quit date...

 Today I made my goal. When i had ended the night last night, i had 10 Cigarettes left in my pack. And i thought to myself, that today (7/17/2024) I will only smoke the 10 cigarettes. And that's what i did. Over three days I have reduced from 16 cigarettes per day, down to 10 cigarettes per day. Tomorrow - I am hoping to smoke less than 7.  The third day of .5mg has fewer side effects than day one. I took my pills at around7:45PM this evening and never noticed any side effects. Last night i still woke up twice as a result of needing to use the bathroom, and then once when the cats were trying to wake me up. It's about time for rest... That's what i'm gonna do. Overall today was a good day.

 It's just about the same time as last night. 7:55 PM and I just took my medication. Last night's sleep wasn't really great. I went to bed at nine and woke up 3 times, about every 2-3 hours. The first time i had to go to the bathroom. It's becoming a habit lately and I'm not sure why. But i have a Physical at the end of the week so i can bring that up. The dreams overnight were unusual. I barely remember them now but i just had an image of dark clouds at night. I was advised that the dreams can become a bit weird but on night one i wasn't really expecting a change.  Waking up several times throughout the night did leave me feeling unrested when my alarm finally went off at 6:00 AM. It's unfortunately been like this for several months. I'd say 6 months or maybe nine months. I generally stems from our cats. Ash and Matchy wake up every morning around 4:00 AM and they start banging on things to try and get us awake to feed them. We tried Dry Food... a Gravi...

 Today I filled a prescription for Chantix. I've been advised for years to avoid the medication due to my underlying mental health disorder and the potential side effects of the medication. The last time I spoke with my Medication Manager, Nicole... it was finally time to take the risk and try it. According to the pamphlet that came with it... It's 3 days on .5 milligrams, then .5 every morning and night for 12-24 weeks. My insurance doesn't cover it. But at $95 dollars for a one month supply... it is dramatically cheaper than continuing to smoke cigarettes for 24 weeks. With that said i am hoping that the 12 weeks is enough for me to quit for good. It's a little after 8:00 PM here in New England and i took my normal dose of pills... along with the Chantix just before 8:00 PM. What i can tell you is that the immediate side effects is a bit of light headedness. While this isn't cause for too much concern... the question will be how it will effect me if i were to take...

 It's Sunday on the East Coast of the USA. Today has been a good day so far. Kat and I went to Walmart to pick up some things for her. I didn't get much. Just Tooth Paste and Hair Dye for the beard. We also got some stuff for the cats. A couple of Catnip toys and a new bed for them. I hope they use the bed otherwise it was a waste of $40 bucks. Since we got home The focus was on Doing Laundry and cleaning. I ended up buying a USB 3.0 HDD Dock. I swapped cases for the parts last week and I ended up with a Few HDDs that i couldn't mount in the case. So... a USB Dock is the way to go.  Later today we are going food shopping (2+ hours). I gotta figure out semi healthy meals for the next week or so. It's really a toss up between quick and easy and healthy. But considering i didn't cook dinner at all last week and basically lived off fast food... i gotta make the change today to try and get better. What i really need to do is start working on a Keto Diet for not only my m...

 American freedom and Liberties are under constant attack from within the country. Some people believe that we should take a more conservative approach to freedom. Freedom as long as it falls within the laws and rituals of the American Bible. I'm not talking about the Latin Bible or the King James Bible. But rather instead the most modernized bastardized version of the bible. The one that suits the will of angry old men and women that fear change. As much as i would love a 1800's marriage to my wife where she is completely subservant of me and her only job is to push out babies and clean the homestead. Personally... i believe in Women's rights. As well as the rights and liberties of every american. I never fought for our freedom... But if this country is about to fall into the realm of Conservative Corporate Rule... then sign me up for whatever military branch that will accept me and attempt to fight the Overlord or dictator that is attempting to rule america. End Rant.