T.A. Michaels

 Today is a bad day. Generally speaking when i write journal entries or blog posts.. I try to keep them upbeat and optimistic. Basically hoping for the best in the day and for life in general. Today, however, is not one of those days. Nervous optimism has given way to paranoia and suspicion. I don't know this to be true... But i feel like people are out to get me. The reason for this is a listing of recent events that have been happening. A couple of months back.. I was at a bar and a man asked if i wanted a cigar. I said sure. The thing smelt worse than most men's Assholes. I smoked it... and if it wasn't for the fact that i had switched to a 100% water policy when going out to public places... I probably would have died. All night long i had soaking sweats and by morning... my bed, and myself smelt like someone had pissed themselves for 12 hours straight in the bed. His primary intention was to get me sent to Samuel Slater Hospital so i could be locked away for the rest o...

 It's been a bit since I last wrote. I've been working on several different things at the moment. Recently I had been diagnosed with ADHD along side my Schizoaffective disorder - So I've been trying to process that for a bit. I didn't want a stimulant medication such as Adderall. The reason being is I have known to many people who have abused the medication over the years. Basically taking it as a street drug rather than an actual medication. As a result - I was put on a medication that assists with Focus and concentration but doesn't cause you to race around. I'm finding it effective though. The half life on the medication is roughly 18 hours... so usually by 3pm its wearing off. While I do find my evening to be a bit chaotic, It's worth while in the sense that my mornings are becoming more productive (Both inside, and Outside of work). I'm doing my best towards quitting smoking and I've been making an active effort to get back into the gym. My weig...