Sunday... A Day of Rest.

 Overall, I'm happy. Things have been moving in a positive direction for the last month or so. Most of the paranoid thoughts from earlier this year have started to subside. I'm not sure if it's the fact that I've been getting positive reinforcement from my friends / family / coworkers, or if it's just a matter that the things that were once bothering me are no longer a concern. There's still areas for improvement. But I feel that overtime, those areas will in fact improve also. 

Really it's just going to take time for everything. I cant expect to win a race against myself on day one. It's going to take time to resolve some of the mental roadblocks that I've been encountering for the last few years. Time management is going to be a focus for the next few months. And by time management I mean structuring my day in order to accomplish my goals. 

While I find it difficult to stick to a routine... The Micro Habits that I need to establish will ultimately save my life. What I mean by that is creating a habit chain. For instance... in the morning, rather than just using the bathroom... getting dressed... and rushing out the door. Adding the micro habit of "Looking myself in the mirror" either before or after using the bathroom... may change my life completely. And... that's how I plan on creating a morning routine. Actually inspecting myself and taking a minute before rushing out the door... May push me to do more things such as "brushing my teeth" because i notice the coffee and cigarette stains. Taking a shower because I notice how my skin looks, my hair looks, and to get an overall clean feeling. Nothing is worse than skipping a shower for a couple of days and starting to look like a junky because I cant stop the itchy feeling that has started to take over from dead skin cells. The same goes for an itchy scalp.

Growing up I never really looked in the mirror. Maybe with the exception of going to get my hair cut. I'd rarely be in the bathroom. Showering and brushing my teeth wasn't a priority. And I didn't have the best examples in the home of what I should be doing every day. I was a kid... 

So... as nearly 38 years old... I have to actively focus on creating the habits that I've only formed a few times in my life.... That every 10 year old should have already learned in life. But, like I mentioned... Overall - I'm happy. 

 

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