All the toys....

It's Saturday, the 22nd. It's been a good day so far. I woke up relatively early.  When I woke up, I headed down to my Therapy appointment. I find it to be somewhat therapeutic. I guess that's the point right. It's just hard to remember everything that comes up over the course of the month. Generally its a matter of  "So whats new" and then just going from there. And while there's new things that pop up everyday... It's hard to explain everything. I usually stick to general topics, Work... Katie... Health... and Family. Sometimes i get the impression the guy doesn't even want me in his care.. Hell... I've gotten that from a few doctors and therapists now... That could be my own paranoia though. 

After Therapy i went over my uncles house. The last time i saw him was in the late winter. It's funny because growing up i idealized him. And i think that overtime i ended up going in a different direction. Between that... and me just not having enough time. Time is funny that way... i heard this last night... but i dont know who said it "The Days are long, but the Years are short." I'm just hoping that during my day... i make a difference. And im hoping that throughout my year... that i'm overall happy. I've been stressing about multiple things lately. And i realize that there's no "one" thing thats gonna cure it... except time maybe. One thing i wanna do... is stop the obsession with the "I gotta" mentality. It's becoming tough to get out of. But i feel like if i do it now... i'll be better off in five years. I have a general idea of what needs to be done... and rather than rushing to the door to do it... i want to take more time to think these things through. So instead of rushing out to buy something i probably dont (or wont) need... Taking a few days to think it over... or simply asking a third party what their thoughts are.

I gotta go get gas for both cars... So i'll probably end this here. But... i do think that im starting to make some progress thanks to the new medication. I realize the stuff has to build up in my blood stream... but overall... im not racing anymore... The "need" is gone... and i can actually focus on a task for more than 20 minutes

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