Recent Events in the Month of May.

 So, The month of May had quite a bit in store for me. At my last one on one with Leadership at work, I was told that I'm getting promoted to Level3 Service Desk Technician, they are just trying to determine the Salary for me before I get bumped up. I am hoping its at least 10% on top of my current salary, but It's entirely possible it will be 5% or as high as 15%. Either way I'd be happy with the outcome. In an effort to resolve my Debt Crisis I am currently in I have decided that the majority of my paycheck will go into Katie's account and I'll have my Bills drawn from there. This will do two things for me. First, Guarantee that the money to cover my debts is always available, And also start building a savings with the excess money that is deposited into her account each month. Anything left over in my name will be my spending cash. I figure I should be on track within 2 months time and then going forward from there it will be all savings. 

My symptoms have kind of ebbed and flowed throughout the month of May. Typically in high stress situations I'll find that the psychotic symptoms are worse than in low stress situations. I'm doing best to maintain low stress.. but depending on the situations that I'm in it's very easy for me to ramp up to 100% on my cortisol levels which in turn causes symptoms to exhibit for a few days until things get back to normal. It's really a hell of my own creation so I am the one to blame. However, I think that by practicing self care throughout the month of June - and going forward - I'd be in a much better spot overall. One way I will be reducing my stress in the near term is that I have switched to working from home permanently. The stress I experience being at work vs at home is unusual in the sense that there's really no difference between the two locations, however I find I have panic attacks at work so being at home is a little easier for me. Plus the freedom from driving to and from work every day should allow me to get a break on the road, save gas and therefore save money, and save the wear and tear on my car. What I do plan on doing over the next few weeks is to get a book on the Security+ exam so that way I can begin prepping for my next certification. I'm thinking that depending on the length of the book. I should be able to get to a point where I can go ahead and take the exam by January of next year. One of the reasons my Symptoms had become worse over the last few weeks is that I had picked up some overtime at work caused me to not be able to destress on the weekends. Luckily I am off this weekend for the long weekend, however I am doing some paying work at my uncles for Sunday and Monday morning. This is more so physical labor than mental labor so I am hoping it goes well.

Weight wise I'm doing well. This morning I weighed in at 257.0lbs which is about a 12.6lbs drop from January of this year. I figure slow and steady will get me to the finish line and also by having more home cooked meals and continuing our walking routine over the summer, I should be able to pass below the 250 by the end of July. Ideally by the wedding I will be somewhere between 230lbs and 240lbs so long as I don't start bingeing on fast food again. That's usually determinate based on my stress levels though. 

Katie and I have been gone to the movies a few times this month. Also we watched a few at home too. It's always good for us to have a date night or two when we can during the month. I know that we went out to eat earlier this week when we were celebrating my promotion. It was a nice change of pace vs ordering food to be delivered.

That's all for now. Write more tomorrow.