Renewed Sense of Purpose.

 263.4lbs. When i think back to 2017... Over the summer of that year i had been as low as 186.2lbs according to My Fitness Pal. While this is by far not my lowest weight. I find it tough to think that only 5 years ago i was nearly 80lbs lighter. Hell... i was 50 pounds lighter in January of 2020. I've instituted a new goal for myself. 1 pound a week for 26 months. That will put me at roughly 160 pounds by Summer 2024. This will mean that I will have to run at a calorie low nearly every day during the week. This will be done either through exercise... or through reducing my food intake.  I think that if i stick to the my fitness pal guide lines for calorie intake... And I can get in 30 minutes of moderate exercise every day... I'll be able to meet my goal. 

Therapy this past week was eye opening. I found that i think about 5 primary things all the time. Katie, Friends, Family, Work, and Money.... I don't really leave room for fun. Which... isnt fun. So... going forward i am going to start thinking... and probably writing about Fun Things. Things that i do... Things that i want to do... and things that I am dreaming up. My Therapist stated that its not good to live between a rock and a hard place all the time. So i either need to challenge myself and fix my situation... Or Come to accept that things will not be fixed over night and let time do its work. Makes sense... right?


That's All for Now.

T.A. Michaels

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