T.A. Michaels

 This morning I woke up from a deep sleep. Then I went down to donate plasma. After not understanding the process I left. Then I went down to my parents. I spent about an hour with them and then came home and took a shower. Then I attempted to donate plasma again. This time the line wasn't as long. I actually got to speak with someone who told me I wasn't eligible to donate plasma due to my medication and medical diagnosis. I'm kinda bummed because the place was offering nearly $800 a month for donations. It's back to the drawing board for me on what ways I can make some extra cash. I'm thinking about starting a VLog because people on YouTube seem to be able to do it and make some extra cash from it. The question really is going to be what am I going to do to make it interesting. Obviously no one wants to hear someone ramble on about mundane shit all day... Otherwise when I tried Google AdSense for this page I would have been accepted. I'll figure it out.

 I don't want to say I'm having a bad day, because I'm not. I just always seem to get myself into trouble when it's not needed. Work today has been tough. I had a hard time getting something accomplished just to find out that it's not our responsibility to fix it. I did do a better job of waking up this morning. I got up by 8:30am instead of pushing it off till the last minute like I've done all week. I still haven't showered yet though. I haven't had the motivation. With any luck I'll be doing that tonight when i get home from walking with Katie. We have both started to lose weight. She's lost more than I have this week. I'm down to 260.4lbs. My lowest since last fall. I'm hoping to break the 260lb threshold by this weekend. It would be nice to see a 5 instead of a 6... even if its only for a few days. I skipped on the gym last night, and instead we went for a walk by the ocean. I'm hoping to hit the gym sometime this coming week. Or...

 263.4lbs. When i think back to 2017... Over the summer of that year i had been as low as 186.2lbs according to My Fitness Pal. While this is by far not my lowest weight. I find it tough to think that only 5 years ago i was nearly 80lbs lighter. Hell... i was 50 pounds lighter in January of 2020. I've instituted a new goal for myself. 1 pound a week for 26 months. That will put me at roughly 160 pounds by Summer 2024. This will mean that I will have to run at a calorie low nearly every day during the week. This will be done either through exercise... or through reducing my food intake.  I think that if i stick to the my fitness pal guide lines for calorie intake... And I can get in 30 minutes of moderate exercise every day... I'll be able to meet my goal.  Therapy this past week was eye opening. I found that i think about 5 primary things all the time. Katie, Friends, Family, Work, and Money.... I don't really leave room for fun. Which... isnt fun. So... going forward i a...

 I'm taking a computer cert tomorrow. So after this I'm going to be doing an exam prep. This will be the second time that I'm taking the exam, so at the very least I know what to expect. The first time I took the exam, I failed by about 4 questions... So I am hoping that I can pass this time. When I met with my boss a few months back, He indicated that once I pass this exam I'll get promoted. So, That's the plan. Pass the exam... Get Promoted.  I other news... I basically lost a friend this weekend. His life is going in an opposite direction of mine... and in order for me to maintain any sort of balance I need to make positive life changes so that means less trying on my part to maintain the friendship. It had become one sided for quite a while now.. So rather than expend any more energy... I'm basically ending the friendship. I'll wait until he contacts me which could be sometime between tomorrow and never... But I'm moving on from it so I don't thi...

 I want to talk about a recent movie that came out. The premise of the story was that an older man who was seeing a therapist regarding his schizophrenia was actually trapped in a dystopian future where machines ruled the world. We all know the movie... but what i want to say about this past sequel was that the concept of a secret universe hiding just behind the curtain, is actually a valid thought process for those of us who are Schizo. When i was at the peak of my illness in 2017... When working nights, i would go around 2 or 3 am to the gas station near my work so i could grab a coffee. One night when walking in... there was a man in a suit who was leaned up against the the cooler doors and as i walked by, he said "we needed you rich." At the time i thought he was someone from the government who had been waiting there for me to walk in at that very time. As i got my coffee and proceeded to leave, the man was still standing there, facing away from me at this point... and i ...