Only a few days left.

There's only a few days left in March. This year seems like it's flying by already.. and I don't know if I'm keeping up with the pace. I have my goals in place for mid-year. And by getting my thoughts in order I'll hopefully meet two of the three goals by July First. Starting Friday, I am whole heartedly committing to quitting smoking. April first is my quit date and I have all the needed Patches to quit smoking. The trick is going to be finding something to do with my boredom. It may mean a lot more writing here during my downtime. 

When I have wanted alone time this past winter, I have resorted to going out to my car and reading articles, Checking my horoscope obsessively... and most of all... Chain Smoking. By no means is it healthy. But its what I have become a custom too. So in order to break this habit... I have to change the trigger... or "Cue." If the cue is me wanting some alone time... then the routine needs to switch from going outside and chain smoking in my car... or instead doing something like going for a walk around the neighborhood. I had added all of these items to my Google calendar at the start of March... and Aside from taking my pills every night... I don't think I've done a single one of them. 

I've got about an hour and a half until Katie gets home. I gotta do some cleanup around the apartment... Then after I want to go for a walk. Nothing extreme... just something to get me started for the season. I am plugging in my Fitness watch now.

I had an odd thing happen to me when I was at breakfast with my parents this morning. I literally felt my heart beating in my throat. I nearly freaked out. But I am seeing this as a sign that I'm in poor health. But I think that rather obsessing on the problem itself. I should be looking to ways to problem solve. I am an excellent problem solver at work. That's my job there... Solve problems. I just don't know why I can't do the same thing for my own life. I really don't want to be the Ferrari Mechanic with a beat up old car. 

I'm hitting a block. I'll write more later when I have some downtime.

T.A. Michaels

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