Something New

 I start a new job in a little less than two weeks. I feel I've come a long way from where I was this time two years ago. Two years ago i was out on TDI... unable to hold down a job because of my symptoms... and living at my parents wondering what the next 3 months held for me. Today, i am living with my finance. I have been working for a year and a quarter... and overall i'm happy. Things could always be better... I could be 170lbs soaking wet... But I'm doing my best not to focus on the things i dont have, and rather focus on the things i do have. Therapy has been helping a bunch with me just being able to vent about my life. Sometimes i am able to make a breakthrough but more often than not its just a bull session where i get to vent about lifes frustrations. Talk therapy really is my key... and it allows me to not dump all my problems on friends and family.

Today i left work early. Nghia indicated i could... i just wouldnt get paid for the day. Figuring that im getting paid out my vacation time in my last check i figured leaving early today would be a wash so i left. I'm in the process of getting laundry done. I cleaned up the bedroom, and living room... Put the dishes away and put the dirty ones in the washer... and i Rearranged the living room a bit. Made a trash.... still gotta add to it though. I've got another load of laundry i still gotta do after the two that i have in are finished. 

Tomorrow i am going into work to complete my last project. We are installing a server rack in the server room to house all of the equipment. While i have my doubts about whether or not the rack is actually going to fit into the room. I'm glad that i can see the project through as it was something that was started a couple of months ago. 

We got a new desk this week. I really like it to be honest. Considering the last one cost 50 dollars at walmart... and this one is solid wood and cost 40 dollars on facebook market place... i would say it was a nice upgrade. I have the motherboard for my gaming PC coming in tomorrow according to the tracking. I plan on getting a 1070ti for it and im going to use it as my primary computer... potentially selling my laptop. My laptop is a trooper... but to be honest its not the best. The AMD chip overheats sometimes and reboots or shuts down. The Tower on the otherhand i am going to start ETH mining with. I figure the graphics card will be able to support it. Plus the 1070ti should be powerful enough to play most new games that come out. I'm thinking the only two games that i really want to play are AOE4 and Diablo4... and that card should handle them just fine. There's something to be said for having a nice sturdy desk. 

I finish Until The End of Time. It took nearly two years. The last 60 or so pages get really dark. And given that i'm one to overthink things it was hard to get past the fact that in 10 to the 100 years there will be nothing left in the universe. After my mini extesentional crisis the last chapter does give a message about home. The fact that we exist at all... in the grand timeline of the universe is pretty amazing. The fact it took about 13 billion years for it to happen is amazing too. Even if humanity lasts for the next million years... its still just a blink in the eye of the entire universe. Kinda a buzz kill... but i'll hold onto the fact that for hopefully the next 30 to 50 years or so... i'll be here.. existing... and experiencing the wonder of life. 

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