My 36th Year.

 My Birthday is today. 36 years old. When I think about it... I'm double the age of 18. So I'm a double adult... or as I am starting to think about it... in my prime. From 0 to 17 you are learning what it means to be human. Then you carry that with you into Adulthood. From 18 to 35... you are learning what it means to be an adult... and from then on you carry that with you the rest of your life. While i would say that my misadventures have led me here.. there were some good times.. and good people along the way. Our birthdays are often a day to reflect back on what came before... and try to align ourselves with where we are heading. 

My 36th year has a lot in store for me and that's providing nothing changes in the short term. Katie and I Will be getting married. I'll be traveling outside of the country for my first time. I'll be completing one year at my new job. And I'll have left the addiction of smoking in the past. November 9th 2003 i started smoking... and November 13th 2021 is when I'll end it. 18 years, 4 days. I am doing this for myself because I know that my health is the greatest motivator for this sort of thing. Within 10 days I'll have an extra 120 dollar not spent on Cigarettes... and the rest will be history. It takes 15 years for the body to return to that of a non smoker... Which means i'll be 51 by the time i can officially say that i am a non smoker. Providing i want to live to 51 with as few complications as possible... then its important for me to quit today.. rather than waiting for tomorrow. 

As for right now... its time for bed.

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