T.A. Michaels

 I'll start off by describing my current mental state and then move on to recent developments in my life. The auditory hallucinations are not as frequent as they used to be. The man in the basement sounds more like a muffled noise... if anything. Rather than a voice speaking to me directly. When i'm out in public im no longer hearing the out of sight people talking about me at great lengths. If i am picking up bits and pieces of conversations im no longer stringing them together in a storyline that revolves around me... It's kind of nice to be honest. I would say my last episode was when we went out for our 18 month where it sounded like the table next to me knew who i was and was talking negatively about me. Dinner was nice though. My therapist said that i should try to ignore these things because whether or not it was actually happening... there's no point in feeding energy into that kind of negativity. Recently though we went up to Maine and even though there was boa...

 I'm not even sure where to begin. I guess I could start with yesterday, then work my way backwards. Yesterday i had my annual Physical. The wait in the waiting room seemed long but to be honest the actual appointment went better than expected. The Doctor and I get along well. He's aware of my mental condition which - full disclosure - led to some very interesting stories for me to recall to him. He said it would make great material for a book. Truthfully while the adventures I've gone on while not medicated are incredible in the sense of "how did i survive?" The truth is that I put myself and a lot of other people in danger as a result. I got my blood work done this morning... So hopefully that doesn't come back with anything unexpected. I'll find out Tuesday after the holiday.  In recent weeks i had been trying to eat better... and be more physically active. But this weeks weather had led itself to be a bit more difficult than I originally expected. The ...