Almost the New Year... and I've got plans

 I don't mean plans for New Years Eve... I mean plans that I want to accomplish over the course of the next year. 2020 had a lot going on, aside from the global pandemic. Its the individual stories that probably matter the most. From going on disability... To Moving into an apartment with a friend... rescuing two kittens... Losing my grandfather which has effected me more than I realized... To Getting back into the work force... My girlfriend going on TDI due to chronic anxiety... to the dissolve of the friendship with my roommate... to moving into a new place. This year has been full of items both good and bad... expected and unexpected.

The thing i want to do in 2021... most of all... Is relax. The every day hustle and bustle isn't what bothers me.. Its the things that are beyond my control which often make it hard for me to keep happy about. Right now I've got so much good going on in my life but really I feel kind sad. I don't know if its because of the items that I've recently gone through.. or if its just that I'm being effected by the shorter weather... I just feel like I'm missing something. But what it is I'm not sure about. I have plenty... There's nothing more that I need in my life... Someone I used to know said I needed to learn to be satisfied with the Mundane... and I can see his point now more than ever.


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