Tossing the Match at the End of the Bridge

There's been a lot that's happened since the end of October. One thing of note has been the downfall of my friendship with my roommate.  His alcoholism led to a rather troubled night in early November and as a result of that I have decided to move. I get the keys to the place on Tuesday. Sight unseen due to the Covid pandemic. It makes me a bit nervous wondering exactly what it is that i am moving into. But I'm cautiously optimistic to final feel like I'm reaching the end of a bridge which i got on a few years back when I initially became unhealthy due to my medication not being correct. The area i am moving into is nice. Away from the problems in the city. More so situated in the suburbs. Not to far from my favorite spots... but at the same time far enough away that my troubles wont haunt me. As for the roommate.... I do feel a bit of guilt leaving him to his own devices. Will he find peace... or will he continue troubled in his alcoholism until he has nothing left. I really don't know. Things with the woman are good. We make a year next week and that makes me happy. It seems like old memories of trauma and heart ache have been replaced with light hearted fun.  Work is trying these days. I don't the same mind i used to have... and it makes routine chores and tasks rather difficult. Its the things that happen every day that make it rather troublesome. I am hoping that once my daily routine is better... then work will get better. I always found that when my home life wasn't such a wreck... that was the time when i did best at work. I have a lot of goals over the next 12 months.  And i am thinking that things will get worked out somewhat good by the end of next year. 

Goals for 2021

1.) Quit Smoking

2.) Begin an exercise routine that is healthy and sustainable

3.) Begin a diet which falls in line with my picky eating but is also healthy and easy to maintain

4.) Begin a savings plan which is simple and easy to maintain - while also not being overly ambitious

5.) Begin a new hobby or project and see it through over the course of the year

6.) Complete my A+ Certification Exams.

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