T.A. Michaels

 Less than a week until the election. I know i voted already... So there's little left to say. At least i exercised my rights to vote. Many countries dont have that right...even if they say they do. No Tricks or Treats for me tonight. A quiet night in with my girlfriend. She's taking a bath now while i take care of some things. Looks like tomorrow i am going to go with my mom to help her buy a car. She is looking at a small SUV. I think its because it would be easier for her and my dad to go places. Risky plays are risky plays. And All it takes is time. It snowed here yesterday. The first of many snow storms from what i can imagine of this winter. We change the clocks tonight. Its kind of rough to be honest.  While things look good right now... I'm not counting any chickens. Things could change in a day.

 Today the apartment is getting shown. It seems like this happens once a week now. Someone walks through with a perspective buyer... and nothing comes of it. Personally i feel a little aggravated because of it. Mainly because... well... i guess it just does.

Truth is... With October half done I'm starting to question what the rest of the year is going to look like. I have a basic plan. Not a very complex and detailed one like I would normally get into... But rather a loosely put together agenda for the rest of the year. Quitting smoking is no longer on the table. I've tried and failed far to many times for it to be on the table anymore. I think when i do finally quit smoking it will make a world of difference... but i dont have the willpower and stamina to complete the objective. I'd have to hide nicotine patches all over in order for me to achieve the desired outcome. If i had a box at my house. A box at my girlfriends... and a box in the car... Then and only then might i be able to do it. But truth is i dont. The sweet allure of smoking is still to great for me to let go of. Even though i know that it does nothing for me. Maybe it has to do with my medication. Any Medication that can cause one to develop a gambling disorder p...

 This weekend my girlfriend and I decided to take a trip up to NH. We got up here yesterday and so far its been a really relaxing trip. Tonight there is a thunderstorm going on in the area and it made for an interesting ride back to the hotel. The weather was nice today though.. mid 70's so we cleaned out my car and went for a ride with the top down. I've found that i've developed an irrational fear of driving though. When the speed limit is 70 im doing 65. Even though when i was a teenager i could do 90 without a problem... i find im a bit more afraid of going that fast. Im not letting it spoil the trip... its just something that i've noticed. Even when im at home... the flow of traffic goes about 80 and i keep it to 70. One other thing i've noticed is that my night vision isnt what it used to be. One of my pills has a side effect of blurry vision.. and while theres nothing i can do about the side effect it makes it a bit upsetting that my night vision isnt what it...

 Two months has gone by now since i last wrote an entry. A bits changed since early august. My noisy downstairs neighbors moved out during September so there is a lot more quiet in the house. I'm still living in providence with a roommate and while his daily habits leave much to be desired... its better than still being at my parents. Not that my parents are bad people... i just felt that it was time to move on. I've been on the job just about three months now. Overall i have no complaints. Each day offer its own unique set of challenges i have to work through and its better than sitting around doing nothing. My boss is a good guy. And my coworker and i have interesting conversations about investing and stocks... aside from briefly skimming through our personal lives. Disability is set to run out soon. For anyone thats not aware... when you are on disability and return back to work they give you a grace period before the checks run out. I've had to adjust my work taxes as a...