Still Working on adjusting

Today I signed up for healthcare. Based on the tax credit its not to expensive for me to afford. Roughly $70 a month for Health and Dental. The plus side of this is that I have a $5 copay for all my office visits with my Medication manager. Considering the fact that at one point I was paying $125 dollars for each visit its a good thing. I can also now look into getting a therapist for some of my trust and abandonment issues. I had been seeing one last October but had to stop when I lost coverage. I've been a little stressed lately with everything that's going on. Last night it sounded like someone was walking up and down the back stairs which only seemed to happen when I was alone in the house. When my girlfriend came over the noise stopped. I'm not sure if it was real or not. The downstairs neighbors had a cinco de mayo party which lasted until midnight. I'm not up for meeting the neighbors yet considering everything I was hearing. Whether it was real or not i'm not sure... but due to elevated stress levels right now I've been hearing a lot of things that I don't believe are real.

I went food shopping and got some additional supplies for the house. Still forgetting some items when I go out. for example trash bags and cleaning supplies. I worked on a budget and a list of items I want to get to before the end of the month. I'm curious when they are going to be reopening the gyms because I would like to go in the near future. I gained about 20lbs since January and am desperate to get the weight off. I'm also hoping that with me living on my own I can make better choices with my diet. If I could be down the 20 pounds I gained by the end of the summer I would be really happy about it.

We are gonna have rain tomorrow. Cold and wet day here in new England. I'm going to do another quit smoking attempt when I run out of cigarettes (Tomorrow). I figure that right now I need to be conserving money seeing as I am now on a fixed income. It's one less thing I don't want to worry about right now.

That's all for now,

-T.A. Michaels

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