Weird Dreams

One side effect of attempting to quit smoking with the patch is the vivid and terrifying dreams that come along with the method. Nicotine patches in general are known to cause Vivid dreams and I don't know if it's just me but those dreams have turned into nightmares. One such dream which I just woke up from involved characters from the walking dead, a demonic cult, and child abduction. The dream faded away like any other but when I woke up I heard a voice saying "we make movies out of those." I find it interesting that the cure for my addiction is to further cause symptoms of my main disorder. With that said... I'm on day 9. Roughly 61 more days to go before I am considered an ex smoker. I've heard that quitting smoking is difficult for Schizoaffective people because of the way the brain is wired and the medication that is used to treat it.

I'm up for the day now... and really I don't have much on the agenda. My Girlfriend gets out of work at 3pm today so that's all I'm really looking forward to. We are planning on watching the interactive black mirror episode which should be fun. I think right now though I am going to go make myself a coffee so I can wake up

That's all for today,

-T.A. Michaels

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